Tuesday, May 23, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Even in Death Chapter 15

Chapter 15 – Come What May
Through the fire
To the limit, to the wall
For a chance to be with you
I'd gladly risk it all
Through the fire
Through whatever, come what may
For a chance at loving you
I'd take it all the way
Right down to the wire
Even through the fire

I know you're afraid of what you feel
You still need time to heal
And I can help if you'll only let me try
You touch me and something in me knew
What I could have with you
Well I'm not ready to kiss that dream goodbye

When it's this sweet, there's no saying no
I need you so, I'm ready to go
“Through the Fire” by Chaka Khan
“Sorry about that,” I mumbled against Bella’s skin while tracing a bite mark I’d left on her inner thigh with my finger.
“I’m not,” she said through a chuckle, her head falling back to my shoulder as I held her between my legs. She skimmed her hand flat down my arm and showed her wrist, where a small nip in her skin glowed in the moonlight. “Apparently, the only thing that can leave a scar on our skin is a bite from another vampire.”
I pulled her wrist to my lips, pressing a kiss there, and then turned to kiss the mark on her neck from James. I was drunk on my love for her at the moment. We’d been in that cave for almost twenty-four hours. We’d only left once so Bella and I could hunt, but we’d raced right back to stay hidden, to stay in the bubble we’d created since I’d woken up from my change.
Saturday, May 13, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Even In Death Chapter 14 & Pics

Chapter 14 – Her Beauty and the Moonlight
Well your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew ya
She tied you to her kitchen chair
She broke your throne and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah...

Baby, I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor (you know)
I used to live alone before I knew ya
And I've seen your flag on the marble arch
And love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah…
“Hallelujah” by Pentatonix (orig. by Leonard Cohen)
Focusing on Bella’s fingers linked with mine, I let her guide me to wherever she wanted to go. I inhaled deeply, finding that her scent was the most prominent around me, which made me wonder if that was because she was so close or because, despite how all over the place my mind was, she could bring me back to something clear and sharp.
Sounds, smells, sights – they were overwhelming, but I found that I could sift through most of it and ignore the insignificant parts. My train of thought, while mainly on Bella, was everywhere, nowhere, and way out there.
I shook my head, feeling the effects of the blood I’d consumed. Bella and Carlisle had both been right; my thinking was clearer, my emotions not so on-the-surface.
Monday, May 1, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Even In Death Chapter 13 & Pic

Chapter 13 – Springtime of My Life
Hang on to your hopes, my friend
That's an easy thing to say, but if your hopes should pass away
Simply pretend
That you can build them again
Look around, the grass is high
The fields are ripe, it's the springtime of my life

Ahhh, seasons change with the scenery
Weaving time in a tapestry
Won't you stop and remember me

But look around, leaves are brown now
And the sky is a hazy shade of winter

Look around, leaves are brown
There's a patch of snow on the ground...
“Hazy Shade of Winter” by The Bangles (originally by Simon & Garfunkel)
“Yeah, Edward… I’ll see you ’round.”
Bella’s promise repeated over and over in my mind when my body felt like it was giving out on me. I felt weak and physically achy until everything that was hurting paled in comparison to the fiery hell that started in my wrist and hand, traveling quickly up my arm.
The flu, the pain in my ribs, the bump on the back of my head, my back – nothing came close to the molten lava that was now spreading throughout my entire body. Logically, I knew it was Carlisle’s venom, along with Bella’s as she tried to help him. I knew how the change worked. Jasper had explained it. Carlisle had explained it. And my Bella had explained it. I was educated on exactly how the venom pushed through the circulatory system, eradicating everything human in its path, while at the same time healing, strengthening, hardening, and killing.
The illogical part of me wanted to beg for death, beg for an end to all the pain. But I didn’t.
Tuesday, April 25, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Even in Death Chapter 12

Chapter 12 – Fade to Black
I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
(Say goodnight) Holding my last breath
(Don't be afraid) Safe inside myself
(Calling me, calling me) Are all my thoughts of you?
Sweet raptured light, it ends here tonight

Closing your eyes to disappear,
You pray your dreams will leave you here;
But still you wake and know the truth,
No one's there...

Say goodnight,
Don't be afraid,
Calling me, calling me as you fade to black.
“Holding My Last Breath” by Evanescence
Jimmy Stewart rambled on about the apartment dwellers around him to his stunning girlfriend, Grace Kelly. The theater room glowed with the bright colors of the old movie as the snowstorm outside pushed against the Cullens’ home.
Turning to my side, I took in the way more interesting view in the room. A smile curled my lips as my handsome husband slowly succumbed to the cold he was dealing with at the same time the medicine started to work. Long, dark eyelashes rested against pale, feverish cheeks, and deep breathing caused his chest to rise and fall slowly, but I could hear his lungs, the congestion. He was better than twenty-four hours ago, but he wasn’t completely over this flu.
Monday, March 6, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Even In Death Chapter 11

Chapter 11 – Fight On
Even if our spirits are broken,
let's confront it!
Single-mindedly, let's fight on
with our fists more... with our spirits more...
with making all sharper.
Still more, let's fight on
even if we get sad and unable to stand up
“Karate” by BABYMETAL
(roughly translated from Japanese to English via A-Z Lyrics)
“Here, Edward,” Bella said softly against my forehead. “Carlisle said it’s time for you to take these.”
“M’kay,” I mumbled, sitting up and rubbing my face. “Any news?”
“Not yet.”
I blindly took the pills and the bottle of water she was handing me. It had been two days since the Denali family had shown up and three days since the Cullens had laid out the trap that should’ve led Victoria and whatever army she’d built straight here. My house in the city was closed up, making it look like there hadn’t been anyone home in a week. Carlisle had deemed me too sick to work, so I was excused from the hospital, which meant I’d been pretty much trapped inside the Cullen home, specifically Bella’s bed, the whole time.
Monday, February 13, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Even In Death Chapter 10

Chapter 10 – Together We’re Invincible
Follow through
Make your dreams come true
Don't give up the fight
You will be alright
'Cause there's no one like you in the universe

Don't be afraid
What your mind conceives
You should make a stand
Stand up for what you believe
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible
“Invincible” by Muse
A low, rumbling growl emanated from Steve as he stayed perched on my chest. His eyes were dark, his ears back, but his paws gripped my sweatshirt fiercely as we sat around in the Cullen’s living room.
“Easy, buddy,” I whispered to him. When he spun his yellow-green gaze my way, a purr starting up softly. He’d had the shit scared out of him, and since I was the only one in the room he could rely upon, he was clingy.
That last thing bothered Bella a bit, but she understood it. She gazed worriedly at the two of us from across the room, but her eyes were warm, lighter. Even her mood was a bit more controlled since our shower upstairs, and a part of me was proud that I could merely help her in some way. It was hard watching my strong, smart wife second-guess herself over just about every-damn-thing. Before, she would make decisions and never look back, but now she was unsure over her own thought processes. Carlisle said hunting helped her but that I helped her more. I hoped that was true, because as out of my element as I felt, I needed to do something for my Bella. And if touching her, giving her pleasure helped, then I couldn’t exactly complain.
Sunday, February 12, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Six - Chapter 25

Chapter 25
New York City
Fuck me, he’s hot.
Calculus homework, Lit homework, Civics homework. Sweet Jesus, I’ll never see the light of day this weekend.
I need coffee. STAT.
He goes away and comes back with a damned girlfriend. Fuckin’ shame.
Snorting at that last thought that wafted my way as I walked toward the NYU cafeteria, I glanced over to the girl who was staring my way. Jessica. I hadn’t seen her since I’d left class in the spring and didn’t come back.
Smirking a little, I shook my head because the “damned girlfriend” was waiting for me in the corner of the large, filled lunchroom, sipping a cup of coffee as she scrolled through her phone.
Sunday, February 5, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Even In Death Chapter 9

Chapter 9 – Catastrophe, It Reigns
When you came to me with your bad dreams and your fears
It was easy to see that you'd been crying
Seems like everywhere you turn catastrophe it reigns
But who really profits from the dying
I could hold you in my arms
I could hold you forever
I could hold you in my arms
I could hold you in my arms forever
“Hold You In My Arms” by Ray Lamontagne
My eyes were on my house as Carlisle backed out of my driveway. I wasn’t sure I needed to be driven into work. I’d been going in on my own without any problems, and that was prior to knowing I was being followed by good and bad vampires.
Snorting softly to myself, I let out a sigh when I caught one last glimpse of my wife in the front window, and then she vanished.
“I won’t be your taxi every day,” Carlisle stated, seemingly reading my mind, but he smirked at my soft laugh. “Bella kind of thought we could talk privately in the car.”
Monday, January 30, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Even In Death - Chapter 8

Chapter 8 – Together Again
So many fears were swimming around and around in my mind
Who would have dreamed the secrets we would find

I've found a world where love and dreams and darkness all collide
Maybe this time we can leave our broken world behind

We'll be together again
All just a dream in the end
“Together Again” by Evanescence
The car was quiet on the way back to the city. Exhausted, Jake opted to close his eyes during the drive. My mind wandered, taking strange paths of thought. I wondered if Bella would beat me home or if she’d sneak in the back door. I wanted to know what she hunted and where she went to do it. I also knew there was a long night ahead, because despite the help offered by the Cullens, the two of us had a lot of things to discuss about what had happened and what we wanted for the future. No matter what the Cullens or Jake said or wanted, no decisions would be made without Bella and me discussing it first.
Sunday, January 29, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Six - Chapter 24

Chapter 24
New York City
A touch of guilt came over me as I completely hid my thoughts from Bella while we were in Forks. If I hadn’t been surrounded by four other sixxers and an entire diner full of innocent people, I might have really taught that asshole a lesson in just what a “freak” could do. As it was, he’d caused my patience to snap. He’d reminded me so much of the kids at the mental hospital, Jasper’s mother, Aro, the small-minded, small-town people where Rose and Emmett had come from – he was hateful but scared. That was usually the case when someone doesn’t quite understand something or someone: they feared it.
There had been too many people around in that diner, and I couldn’t let Bella know exactly what her ex thought of her, of what we all were. My mind reading was a blessing and a curse, one I’d learned to deal with since I was little kid, but not everyone could handle the mental assault of opinions and nastiness that humans thought every damn day.
Sunday, January 22, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Even In Death Chapter 7

Chapter 7 – Ordinary World
Papers in the roadside
Tell of suffering and greed
Here today, forgot tomorrow
Ooh, here besides the news
Of holy war and holy need
Ours is just a little sorrowed talk

And I don't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive
“Ordinary World” by Duran Duran
Bella and I watched as Alice walked back inside the house, but I glanced down at the feel of my wife’s hand slipping into mine. Since the very beginning of our relationship, that had always felt just perfect to me. And her sweet, soft giggle told me that she felt it, too.
However, that sound, that sweet, gorgeous sound of laughter caused tears to well up in my eyes. “Jesus, sweetheart, I never thought I’d hear that sound again,” I whispered, bringing her hand up to kiss her fingers.
“I know… I’m—”
Monday, January 16, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Even In Death Chapter 6

Chapter 6 – Everything I Needed
From the moment I saw you
It was the look that you had in your eyes
You were everything I needed
From that time for the rest of my life
And I'm counting all the days down
til I can see you and I know somehow
if you need me the way that I need you

Cause I don't want anybody else but you.
I know what to say but I don't know how
I don't want to go through the rest of my life
without you my baby, no
Cause I don't want anybody else but you
I don't want to wait till my time runs out
I just want to tell you how much that you mean to me
You're the only one I see
“Anyone Else” by Orianthi
My car was completely silent for the first twenty minutes of the almost-hour drive I now knew to expect. The grip I had on the steering wheel as I navigated the highway behind Carlisle’s Mercedes was almost painful. The anger, however, hadn’t dissipated. Not even a little. I was mad at Jacob, Carlisle, myself, the circumstances, and maybe even a little bit at Bella for some of it, even though I knew most of it, if not all, was out of her control.
Sunday, January 15, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Six - Chapter 23

Chapter 23
New York City
“I can’t believe today makes six months since we took down VI,” I told Edward as I slid my arm through his and stepped around a group of students on the NYU campus.
“I know,” he agreed. “It seems to have flown by, but part of that is just not having to worry about them.”
It had been a busy six months…but in a good way. Once home, we’d cleaned up the mess, gotten new cell phones since we couldn’t be sure VI hadn’t come back and tampered with our old ones, and tried to focus on the future, rather than the past. Because we’d had to run from VI, Edward and Jasper couldn’t finish out their classes that semester, which meant they’d had to start the classes over again. Rose and Emmett, who were attending a smaller school, had been able to test out of their classes, so they weren’t behind. Neither was Alice, who was taking classes from home. They’d all convinced me to apply over the summer for NYU, and now I was going to school alongside Edward and Jasper most days. I loved the freedom I had now, and school was just the start of it.
Sunday, January 8, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Six - Chapter 22

Chapter 22
Olympic National Forest, Washington
The building was a beehive of activity when I took a deep breath, let it out slowly, and looked around as I waited for the next sixxer to have a seat across from me. We’d finished the fight a few hours ago, and because we couldn’t stay in the high school gym for long, as they’d woken up, we’d sent the sixxers through a window back to the big building in the middle of the forest. Many had been scared enough to want to leave right then, but we’d been able to calm them and promise their safety if they let us help get them home or wherever else they’d rather go. Once everyone had been moved over, we’d introduced ourselves to the group and explained our abilities, telling them they were safe and asking them to be patient while we worked to get them home. Now, as the others in our group cleaned up, Edward, Alice, and I were speaking to everyone individually.
“Oh, this should be helpful,” Edward said, his voice low, as another person moved toward us. I raised an eyebrow, but he merely grinned as Alice let out a hum and nodded.

Even In Death Chapter 5

Chapter 5 – This Truth Drives Me
Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me
Into madness
I know I can stop the pain
If I will it all away
“Whisper” by Evanescence

My heart dropped into the pit of my stomach.
“Bella? Oh, no, no, no…” I quickly tapped redial, groaning when it went straight to voice mail.
“Hey, you’ve reached the voice mail of Isabella Masen. Leave a message, and I’ll get back to you as soon as I can…”
The beep signaling the recording made me stumble over just what the hell I was supposed to say. “B-Bella? Shit, what am I doing?” I sighed deeply, squeezing my eyes closed and finally just giving into the madness I seemed to have fallen into neck-deep. “Sweetheart, if this is you, call me back. Please! I think… I’m pretty sure that… You’ve left me clues, baby, and I’m starting to put them together, so if I’m not losing my mind and this is really you, then please, please, please call me. I just… I miss you, Bella. So much, and I love you. That’ll never change, whether this is a cruel joke on me or not. So if this isn’t my wife, know that I will find who has this phone and…”
Monday, January 2, 2017 | By: Drotuno

Even In Death Chapter 4 & Pics

Chapter 4 – No Colors Anymore
I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors any more, I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by, dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

I see a line of cars and they're all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a newborn baby, it just happens every day

I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door I must have it painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
It's not easy facing up when your whole world is black
“Paint It Black” by The Rolling Stones
The bustle of the hospital cafeteria was loud, from the food line to the conversations around me. I stirred my cup of coffee slowly, gazing blindly out the window. The day was dreary, rainy, and pretty normal for Seattle. Fall was in full swing, so the rain was cold, almost biting. Droplets landed against the glass by me, rolling downward as they collected other drops along their way, and it all pooled along the window ledge.
Bella had loved rainy days. She used to tell me that it made for perfect reading. She’d say that curling up with a good book on a rainy day was just about her favorite thing. Curling up with me and a good book on a rainy day, she’d told me, was the “perfectly perfect” day.